Thank YOU JESUS!

1 Thes 5:16-18  
" Rejoice evermore.   Pray without ceasing.   In every thing give thanks: for this  is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you."

Sometimes when we find ourselves surrounded in circumstances that are so completely beyond our control, we find ourselves at a total loss for what to do, how to act, react, and what to say.  I have found myself there a time or two in my journey.  It is such an overwhelming feeling of utter chaos and loss.  Life will never return to normalcy, and at that precise moment it feels as if peace will never again be known by you.

It is painful, I know, to reach down and pull yourself up by your boot straps, as they say.  First of all do I have boot straps and second of all, how on earth am I expected to find them?  Have you ever asked yourself that question?  How? How? and How again?  How can I go on when my heart has been ripped out of my body and torn to shreds, and then somehow I am expected to shove those shreds back inside and function as the WIFE, MOTHER, FRIEND etc. that I am.  Oh my, yes we hurt, but oh my what a pity party some of us can throw.  Yes my heart is in pieces, yes, life will never be the same, and yes I hurt a very real and very deep agonizing pain, that always lives as a dull ache of wanting and missing that very vital part of me.

And while I am wallowing in my self pity and blubbering my wants and needs to GOD.   By the way, I am HIS princess and yes I blubber to HIM, for HE is my father and HE loves me even with all my blubber, and my teary, swollen red eyes!  I love climbing into HIS lap because then HE wraps HIS arms around me and HE gently reminds me . . . . . 

I know what you mean, I know what you feel, I recognize that pain!  I felt the same way when my son died on that cross!

HE reminds me that it was then that HIS son looked out across time and saw me and my loved ones and you and your loved ones and HE decided then and there that HE would die for us!  All of us.  Whether we deserved it or not, the gift was given!

So my FATHER whispers in my ear. . .TRUST ME, for you and the ones you hurt for were born in my thoughts.  I know your beginning and I know your end!  I have ordered your steps, your stumbles and even those races that you win and those that you lose-  I AM!  And therefore I am all that you need.

Until the time in which HE chooses to make right, the shambles that are my upside down world, I will trust in HIM, for HIS word says that HE works all things for good.   Even though there are fleeting moments of panic, GOD has proven HIMSELF faithful over and over!  And so I continue in this journey of trusting in GOD'S will-- FOR THE COMING JOY IS INCOMPARABLE!

Father:  May we rejoice evermore and may we give you thanks in and for every single moment of our lives!  Father may I be able to recognize, that no matter the circumstance or joy or the pain, that it is YOUR perfect will for me!  Teach me Father, in everything to give thanks for YOU are in control and therefore, i need not try to be.